Hopefully, this is the last long weekend

     I am optimistic that this will be our last long weekend.  It will be much, much better than last weekend.  And, for that I am so thankful.  Now, I just want to know when we are leaving.  I feel like I am one of the most impatient people in all the world.  I thought for sure that once I KNEW they were REALLY going to give me a new referral, I would relax.  That precious little referral came Tuesday.  Now, I can't stand it.  I have got to get my hands on her!  I just want to know when I am leaving!!!  I told you I was impatient!  Wait until you see her, then you'll understand.

    At least 10 times a day, Paul and I pull her picture up on the computer and just stare and smile.  I could just eat her up!

     Enough of that, here's what we do know.  On Wednesday, I had to overnight money to FTIA (Families Through International Adoption).  I highly recommend them, by the way!!!  They were going to send over our paperwork and then wire the money.  They keep telling us it's going to be quick.  Now, that may not mean a lot to you.  But, if you are with FTIA, then you know it means a great deal!  I love FTIA and I would use them again!  But, they are not going to hold your hand and console you or even give you a glimmer of hope.  To be honest, at times, it's a bit depressing.  However, they don't make false promises.  And, when they tell you something, you know it's true.  So, for FTIA to say something's going to be quick, I believe it!!

     It also hit me Wednesday night that I never sent a dime for Mylei.  I was working on adopting her for 3 months and never sent any more money than I had paid 2 years ago.  I had been working on Emme for a day and I had to overnight money so they could wire it to China.  So, Wednesday night, I panicked!  I thought this is going to happen fast and I don't have one thing done to adopt this child.  I don't have any clothes because Mylei was 18-24 months and Emme is only (almost) 10 months and she is a peanut!  I have the wrong size diapers, no bottles, no baby toys.  This is on top of ordering new money (the $3500 orphanage donation has to be in new money as well as the rest of the money for fees and spending.)  At 4:30 in the morning, I found myself lying wide awake starring at the ceiling.  Finally, at 6 am, I got up and began working!

Maybe.... it won't be a long weekend.... if I sleep!:-)